October 2010
1 post
When you're the 'go to' person, for everyone you...
My brain is scattered, in both my conscious and unconscious states.
I can’t think straight to save myself.
I don’t feel close to anyone anymore.
I want everything that I can’t have.
I miss everyone. I miss everything.
I want to sleep to stop thinking, but if I do, I know nightmares are in store.
I hate everyone and everything around me, and I hate that I hate it.
Nothing...
September 2010
1 post
I am genuinely afraid of growing up.
Genuinely afraid.
My little brother turns 18 in 9 days, and even though he’s only 19 months younger than me, it scares me.
I told him to have a good day today, he text back with “same to you”, and the simplistic maturity of his message shook me.
I think the main reason I’m afraid of growing up is that I hate change.
I don’t have a job, I don’t drive and I...
April 2010
1 post
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March 2010
3 posts
I found this written on the back of an envelope...
“One alone, to be my own I alone, to know her caresses One to be, eternally The one my worshipping soul possesses At her call, I’d give my all All my life and all my love enduring This would be a magic World to me If she were mine alone”
The envelope was empty, but I would love to know what was inside.
I think I’m in love with being a mess.
When I get nostalgic, I get nostalgic for the worst times in my life.
When the only thing that actually motivated me to get out of bed was some lousy words.
When everything around me was falling apart.
I get nostalgic for the first time I saw my Dad cry.
I get nostalgic for crying on my best friends shoulder.
I get nostalgic for speaking very few words to anyone.
I get nostalgic for coming...
i over analyse everything.
i am pretty sure that the reason i have always been so afraid to drive is because it means that i have to learn how to control something.
everything else is a matter of my own perception, and i have complete control over that. i always have, and i’ve never had to learn.
i have control over myself, which allows me to be responsible for both myself, and my friends when it’s necessary.
...
February 2010
3 posts
Spent the night counting down all the cracks in the wall I’ll start having to cope with the fact that I see everything that used to hold my feet on the ground Falling apart around me Everybody knows the world will spin without you And talk about you when you’re away Everybody knows the world will spin without you Your best years seem further away, further away Maybe this year...
i just realised how weird everything in my head...
i never share my dreams with anyone, and this is probably why.
#1: i remember when i was around 7 or 8 years old, i used to have this recurring nightmare. my mum would fall down this giant drain and be trapped, and i’d be running around frantically trying to find someone to help me get her out, but nobody would help. eventually, the rest of my family would attempt to help her out, but fall...
January 2010
17 posts
i haven't felt this in a long time.
i don’t know what ‘this’ is specifically, but it’s that weird feeling i get when i read an amazing piece of writing. it’s what i got out of bed for every morning of my last few years of high school. it’s the feeling that i crave at this time of night. i haven’t been intrigued by somebody’s writing in a long time, but i am right now.
This is for all...
late night conversation isn't anywhere near as...
i remember when that one other person who was always awake used to know EXACTLY what to say, to make me go to sleep, smiling. when the conversation was composed of every deep thought and memory from the back of our heads.
now it hits 4:00am and there’s more than just one person awake. and the only conversation that goes on is a comparison of “why are you still awake?“‘s,...
am i really that weird?
two posts in one A.M. i MUST be thinking too much.
people think it’s stupid that i hid my birthday on facebook. but it proved to me exactly what i knew it would - the amount of people who care enough to remember your birthday.
i looked on another girl whose birthday it was today’s facebook wall, who had displayed her birthday on facebook, and there were hundreds of happy birthday...
my birthday.
i brought it in at my friends birthday party.
nobody there knew it was my birthday in under an hour until they asked how old i was.
dad went on a four wheel driving/camping trip.
mum worked until 12:00.
jade came over for 10 minutes, then left to go to her fiance’s mum’s birthday dinner.
lauren remembered it was my birthday the day before.
wayne remembered a couple before that.
...
Today I received the birthday card that I hate receiving every year - the one without my Pop’s name on it.
But for the first time since he passed away, I haven’t cried on the eve of my birthday.
Because I’ve kept one card that he gave to me for my birthday when he was still around, and I read that instead.
And I read the fathers day card I made for him when I was 6, that he...
This will always be my 'go to' song.
Thanks a lot. I’ve been disadvantaged from the start. He constricted the veins heading straight to my head, Rerouted the blood to my heart instead. Rerouted the blood to my heart instead. I am braindead, Thinking strictly in blues and reds. Oh, I’m in enough trouble man… Oh man, I’m in trouble again. Cause everyone’s ears are watching me, And I never, ever felt that...
Bring on the nostalgia...
Written after the night I met my hero, and told him that it was good to see him happy. This is what makes it real. This is what makes me know that you don’t get it. This is what makes me know that he ‘fell in love with the scar’.
September 28, 2007
i dont know if has been apparent or not but in the past year or so i have become so insecure its insane. it blows my mind everytime...
"i just wanted to thankyou for being responsible...
I really like it when people make the effort to thank you for your efforts. At the end of the day, they are the only people left that I respect.
They are the people who make up for everything that went wrong, and remind me that despite the fact that we are outnumbered, there ARE still good people out there.
“The best way to waste your life, … is by taking notes. The easiest way to avoid...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via sparklesandsmiles)
Don’t believe a word, A word they say. It’s more than a T-shirt, It’s more than a tattoo, It’s more than a phase. This is how I was raised. You keep trying to market this feeling. I heard what you said, And no we’re not the same, No we’re not the same. You’ll never be a part (of what we have), You’ll never sing a song (that we love), You’ll...
Listen
Finding Neverland.
Just a little something I wrote last week when I was away.
The long drive up, A-B-C-D-E…I search for every letter of the alphabet on the numberplates of passing cars.
“Remember that time we stopped there, and you gave us Yowie chocolates?”
“Remember when Wayne was afraid of ‘The Big Worm’ because he thought he was really inside the worms guts?”
At the first sight of water, I sing the...
"Things change. And friends leave. And life...
clareohh:
-kurtcobain:-jenn:runtothem:leighasalady:a-reason-to-believe:starshipz:kateyohshiiit:conversationswithstars:omgsh-sydney: - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
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strictlyinbluesandreds:
how did you meet megan?
the first time we ever talked she called my friend a retard. but really it’s a long story that involves ghosts saying ‘jesus is coming’ and false start.
Ask me anything
…why did the ghosts even say that?
i remember you guys c/p’ing me this conversation you had years ago, and it was like bla bla bla bla everyone is retarded bla bla...
December 2009
15 posts
“i would rather read jane austen novels than read twilight”
– myself
You'll know what inspired this entry, but I love...
Tonight I was asked what my views on religion were by a friend I know from local shows. My response was that “I don’t personally believe in God or anything, but I have respect for ANYONE who can maintain a strong belief in ANYTHING”.
Firstly, these are the very few things that I ACTUALLY believe in:
My Family
Myself
Fall Out Boy (and any other band I hear who has potential)
...
Tonight will be the night that we begin to ease the plugs out of the dam. And we will stand knee deep in the flow, the undertow will grab our heels and won’t let go. And while we hold, our legs quivering, the water rises now to our teeth when we just let go and sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs. To breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have and all the...
I've become super opinionated again lately.
If there is one thing I’m never looking for, it’s love.
You know why? Because when people long for love, or long for a relationship, they get so far involved in trying to make it work with someone, and everyone becomes a target for their infatuation.
Any person that they meet, within seconds, is a potential partner…ANY. PERSON.
And it’s fucking stupid.
I don’t...
“I’ll be okay, ‘cause I’ve got the stars…”
i am way too afraid of letting people get close to me.
'We're the lifers here till the bitter end,...
strictlyinbluesandreds:
One of my best friends (who I happened to meet through the FOBR Boards) posted this on my facebook wall today. I can’t really tell you how it made me feel, apart from the fact that it is 100% true.
No matter where I am in my life, FOB will always have a special place in my heart, even though at times I am ashamed to tell people what this band really mean to me.
Over the...
2009 in Retrospect.
Yeah, it’s that time of year again. The time that everyone compiles their ‘Top 10’s of ____’ lists, and reminisces on the year that has passed.
In retrospect, this year has probably been the single greatest year of my life. I know everyone says this at the end of every year, but for the first time I truly mean it when I say that I learnt who my real friends are. I saw a lot of great bands play...
TOP 10 OF 2009.
I thought this year was a pretty average year for music. For as much good music that came out, I struggled to put together a top 10. But here you have it Top 10 of 2009:
#10 Believers Never Die - Fall Out Boy
A great band’s greatest hits. Really just a list filler, but it’s deserving of a place.
#9 Roads Maps And Heart Attacks - This Time Next Year
I only recently got into these...
November 2009
5 posts
I hid my birthday on facebook so that when it...
This is one of many things I’m thinking of at 6:00am when I can’t seem to fall asleep.
Every year I say I’m not going to do anything for my birthday, because honestly, I don’t want to.
But every year someone convinced me with a “it will be good to get everyone back together before school starts again!” or something of the like. Not this coming year.
I deleted...
TODAY THERE WAS A KICK DRUM BEATING IN MY CHEST...
only one other person on here will understand what that felt like.
If I have missed the point of the previous piece...
steveisthereason:
Here’s to us fools that have no meaning…
Posted by mikeflanagan1 on October 23, 2009
Sometimes I wonder if every generation just thinks the music they grew up with is the best, or if what’s popular with young teens today really does absolutely suck. It amazes me how much has changed since I first fell in love with music. I’m not even 20, but the difference between what was...
October 2009
1 post
things are moving too fast.
i just came to the realisation that in no time at all, this won’t be my bedroom anymore. these won’t be my friends anymore. this won’t be my house anymore. this won’t be my town anymore. potentially, this won’t be my city anymore.
i am so fucking afraid of growing up.
September 2009
1 post
because i'm one for controversy...
i’m just going to go ahead and rant about local music fans.
as a fan of local music, you should be a fan from a completely different perspective than you are for international music.
as part of a local music scene, as well as being a fan of the music, and supporting the bands you love, it is your role to promote those bands, and gain them the exposure they need to succeed.
there is no...
July 2009
4 posts
“The big difference between you and me is understanding the word...”
– Fireworks
Playing The Villain...
You’re so pretty Such a must-see Dress yourself in jealousy Self-appointed gift from above You would make a killin’ Playing the villain Well, I hate who you’ve become I don’t know you anymore Who are you now? I don’t know Who are you now? This ain’t gonna last forever So come on back down my way, baby This ain’t gonna last forever Nobody should want you...